Happiness

[vdansk]

I am inherently optomistic...second generation, at that.  My glasses are always 51% full, my tomorrows always bright.  When I fall into despair, it is a journey rather than a destination.  I just don't fit there very well.  In the midst of tragedy, I interrupt my own misery with humor or whimsy.

Today, I am in a fog of Prednisone...a lovely drug that makes many people irritable or morose.  It makes me giddy.  Rarest side effect ever.  (And my dreams get super-vivid in gorgeous color.)  Now, the fact that Prednisone changes breathing from "painful and difficult" to "effortless and unthinking" may have a lot to do with the giddiness...all that oxygen!  This is, truly, the only drug that I would ever be tempted to abuse...and it is so very toxic that I will keep it for breathing.

This disjointed beginning is to explain that I am ecstaticly happy that my Pern club has woken up, and it's hard to tell where Prednisone leaves off and satisfaction kicks in.  Things have been very slow for the past month, and I have been trying hard to keep things going...and today I had 40 messages in my inbox, and only 3 were spam, there were 10 new messages on the boards, and Anna is back!  (Anna is one of the 3 co-leaders, and is busy preparing to move.)  I have 9 stories received for the first issue already, with about a dozen more promised, and a whole month to deadline...and i am indecently optomistic.  The fact that I am writing again is certainly part of that.

Soon before I discovered LJ in the midst of deciding to revive StarRise, my creative outlets had become...well, let me give an example.  I came up with the plot to an entire science fiction novel based on my younger daughter's Little People play sets.

This clearly called for desperate measures.  And in writing again, and editing again, I am feeling so much more...me.  Like a person, independent of profession, or even of motherhood.

So, it's natural that watching StarRise grow and thrive would cheer me immensely. 

And the prednisone doesn't hurt.   ;>

Comments

[aerden.livejournal.com]

Hope--Breathing's good!

I haven't noticed that prednisone (or prednisolone) affect me much, but I do remember dreaming with my eyes open after having a rhinoplasty when I was 18. I don't know what I was given, but that would be my abuse drug of choice. I saw very vivid images of Romans standing in a marble room with columns, and red velvet curtains hanging all around with gold fringe on them.

I should show you some of my Paul Graves (Harry Potter) stuff, sometime. He was the character who took over my mind after Aerden. I don't think I wrote him very well, in retrospect, but it was still a wonderful ride.

*happy sigh*

[deva-fagan.livejournal.com]

Hooray for creative energy! It's marvelous how one bit of energy feeds a bit more and a bit more and suddenly you don't have enough time for all the ideas and inspirations.

I just googled StarRise and found the site-- it sounds very cool! If I had more time I would love to do something like that. Even more, I would have loved something like that when I was at the height of my Pern love in High School/College.

[vdansk]

I met my husband through a Pern club, right after college. We becames friends, collab'd, our characters fell in love, and then...we fell in love. (For this very reason, I won't collab closely or have a LARP in game romance with a straight man who isn't my husband. I trust my heart, but I don't want to dent anyone else's.)

Interestingly, the more I write for StarRise (or character histories for Prophecy, for that matter!) the more my ideas for the (too many) novels I want to write gel in my mind. [Including the one based on Joy's Little People toy sets, which is a perfectly usable concept if I can get past it's origins!]

[rclementmoore.livejournal.com]

For me, a creative outlet makes a huge difference in my mood. I get unbearably cranky when I get too bogged down that I don't get to let the muse reign. I found that it was exactly like you say: I'm myself when I'm writing, and not just the product of what I do, and what I am to other people.

OF course, now writing IS my profession (and I'm NOT complaining about that!). But I find that I still need a certain amount of creative play time. I still haven't worked out the balance on this. Yet.

Can one sign up for the club just to read the stories and stuff?

StarRise

[vdansk]

YES! Please do. You can even sign up under a fake name if you don't want people to know you're there. ;>

Check us out; lurkers are welcome.

[perimyndith.livejournal.com]

Oh, a novel based on the Little People... but which playset? I am dying to know. Have you started writing it?

I have to say I have found that I am nearly always happy when actually engaged in the act of writing. I love to feel as if I am making something, and I get a little giddy at the idea that maybe if I'm really lucky I can share it with a bunch of people some day.

[perimyndith.livejournal.com]

Oh yeah, and prednisone... two thumbs up! That stuff saved my a$$ when I was pregnant.

StarRise

[vdansk]

If anyone is interested in looking:

http://starrise10.proboards104.com

As i said, lurkers welcome!