Don't mind me...I just don't have a whole lot to say.

[vdansk]

OK, anyone who knows me at all should be very worried by this development.

I currently have no impassioned opinions on...anything.  Not on parenting, politics, religion, the state of culture in our society, the weather...nada.  Zip. 

I have no desire to write, read, eat, watch TV, do puzzles, or even surf the net.  I'm beginning to suspect that I'm sleep deprived.  Either that, or aliens have eaten my brain.

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[mewsrissicat.livejournal.com]

Or depressed. ((hug)) Understandably. ((double-hug))

[360high.livejournal.com]

If you haven't already done so...go...run...get help. Really think you need to build an mental health support team that you can do face to face with.

If another tuesday get together would help, let me know.

[vdansk]

Today is better...not great, but better. Considering that I just learned that my Mom has fallen for the 5th time and is on the way to the hospital...that's a little surprising. And I do have a team. I may need to expand it, though....

But 9 hours of sleep helped.

[chris-warrior.livejournal.com]

your energy is going to just getting by. i advise all the common fixes: hot showers, time outside, new books, naps, TV shows you always wanted to watch.

but if a couple days pass by and you're still not interested in anything, i agree with above poster - seek help. *hug*

[vdansk]

Thanks. Last night was a nadir, and today is not as bad. I really need...a week in the bahamas. Girl friends only. (Maybe a few 'honorary' GFs, too.)

Realized today talking with my NP that I don't want to read because I don't want to risk emotional involvement. With a book. That's a new definition of depleted resources!

But 9 hours of sleep did help. And work is wondrously therapeutic.

[chris-warrior.livejournal.com]

if your sanity can hold out til July, i think you should take off a couple days, find a sitter for Wednesday and come down to Rhode Island with me for a beach day, as well as roller coasters day.

yay sleep!

the realization wrt reading is interesting. maybe non-fiction?

[vdansk]

I actually have that Monday off....

[chris-warrior.livejournal.com]

huh. maybe should rearrange tentative trip plan... that could work!

[reynaud.livejournal.com]

I'm going to have to agree with everyone else here. Hopefully a good night sleep and a good day of sun will re-energize you. But if not, then *please* seek help. If all you were was just devoid of something to say, that would be one thing. But when you say that you have no desire to do anything, then red flags and alarm klaxons and giant robots screaming, "Warning! Warning!" start going off in your friends' minds.

Please remember to take care of yourself.

[vdansk]

You know, maybe I should just have titled this: Friends, please tell me you love me!

Thanks for the thoughts and concern. The sleep did help, and today is brighter...and I had a nice chat with someone who is both a friend and a professional.

[tenderpaw.livejournal.com]

What they said.

I know that my energy and resolve to actively live life have been fully depleted before, and that it is not a comfortable place for me to reside. One can choose things that will make it better or worse, and doing nothing about it makes it worse. That doesn't mean you have to force yourself into great life-changing actions; for me this type of situation occurs more often several weeks or months after I have done critical things. It may mean you have to force yourself to do less, and seek help for yourself elsewhere -whether it be for your own mind or for the physical demands of your life.

You need a fresh and stable balance. Find the things that rejuvenate you the most and incorporate them into your life more routinely so they can help keep you going.

You're a survivor, and you do what needs to be done. I have no doubts that you will continue to live, and will flourish again, whether it remains a strong desire or not.

You are very loved, and none of us wants to lose Hope.

[vdansk]

Today I wore pink dangly earrings to work, which seemed to help. And work helps. And I at least cut up fresh fruit for the kids, even if supper was pretty scattered. And Mom, who fell tonight for the 5th time...for the first time didn't break anything.

I'll be OK. The hope wears on me sometimes. Despair is easy. Anger is actually fairly pleasant. Hope is a b***h.

[dcltdw]

A friend of mine is this very loud advocate of getting enough sleep. I could subject you to him, which I think you'd actually find very amusing, to say nothing of finding that Dave is a very interesting fellow.

Me, I just get yelled at by Dave when I mention I'm not getting enough sleep, but I digress.

In a more positive spin, it's possible that your body is reacting to summer as it should: ahhhh, snoooooze in the hammock! *shrug* Maybe you're like me and find it's easier to convert $BAD_STATE into something better by finding something related to $BAD_STATE and just shifting perspective accordingly until I arrive in $GOOD_STATE.

Hugs for you!

[vdansk]

Sleep Deprivation: Bad.

A lack of sleep will quickly convert "My Life is Challenging" to "My Life Sucks". And causes weight gain and loss of muscle mass. ;)

It never fails to amaze me how much of a difference one good night's sleep can make to perceptions.

That having been said...I need a day off. Preferably in the Bahamas. ;) But at least I can now remember that I had an awesome time only 8 days ago....

[reynaud.livejournal.com]

In lieu of the Bahamas, might I suggest the US Virgin Islands? Specifically Cinnamon Bay on St. Johns? The advantages: no pesky international borders; technically IN the Carribbean; not that expensive lodging. Admittedly, it's not that luxurious, but how much luxury do you need when you're 20 feet away from a beach with an aqua blue sea?

[vdansk]

Ooooh...that sounds nice!

In reality, I doubt I'd be happy taking a trip like that without my girls. Of course, a resort with childcare options might be possible.... ;) Or the ever popular: bring along the childless godparents!